Hi World!

Hi World!

Life have not gone any better until last night. A big huge cry! And, today is just another to live. :)

I have so much negative thoughts again when I see my brother crying on the phone. And, Mum cried due to this matter. And everyone at home are just so disturbed. Lawrence went to meet Dad. Dad has gone thinner. Well, maybe everyone at home are just losing weight. :) Free Diet! :p

I just really hope things will be better off when time goes. I kept asking GOD, "Why again? I'm tired!". I didn't managed to share on the meditation during Disciple Class last night. It was just painful! I did not want to cry in front of them anymore.

I went back home! Cried like I never cried before. Listening to "We were the reason". The more I cried! Till, Big Papa(Julius) called. He knew I was in pain. Reached after15mins. Cried lagi~

Threw out all my sadness, my pain. All was fine after that. He started telling me his problems at home, CSS, and life. Eventually, I felt much better off. Chatted for more than 3 hours.

I prayed to Jesus at night. I asked him again "Why?" But he did not answer me tho. Maybe time will tell.

My life still goes on! No more pondering back at the past. Yes, I might cry! But, I told myself, "GO ON AFTER THE CRY! KICK SOME ASS!" . I've got more to accomplish! Cheers!