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Seemed it like its been a long long time since I really blogged bout the happenings around me eh?

Life have been still considered to be busy but maybe not as much as the assignment week...~Hurmp...As time goes, I got to know more on people's heart and mind~And,I'm learning to change to someone better...Perhaps,someone that does not care too much on unnecessary stuff...Something good right??

College life is coming to an end very soon!I've been very closely with my CSS juniors these days...I wish to spend as much time with them before me leaving KL~Maybe,its my biggest achievement in TARC~~ ^^

Exam is coming around...Its time to get on the books again!

Thanks to Chong V and April for reviving my dreams once again!

Merry little Xmas all!!

Xmas Mood~ON!

We didn't follow to the PD trip...But somehow,WE managed to have fun from PA Recruitment-Times Square-Pavillion-Cheras (Ikan Bakar)...

Jessica labelled this as the Stress Out Day~Which I super agreed to it...We went there right after the CS presentation...Although,it wasn't a pleasant presentation but..........Nothing stopped us girls from being who we were...Tahahah~~

Pictures were taken along the way...Enjoy!Thanks to Jessica Yen & KS for being the photographers!! ^^

Taken at outside Sg.Wang~

Outside Maybank~Tahaha~~

Just meee~~

We GIRLS~~!!!

Flowery flower~~

Kita Lagiii~~

At the Stairway~~

Pose!!!Pose!!!Pose!!!

The Crazy ones!!

Alamak...~Nie Hor Kah Seng~~Rainnie's BF~~

Jessica Yen~~Ah Moi~~

Ooppsiee Rainnie~~

Pretttyyyy ehhhh??? =)

It was an awesome day!!

It was a great stress releasing day!We had much fun tho!Although...Its just...KL~~But,it was fun tho!!! ^^

Monday~

Assignments are coming to an end...The year is also coming to an end...This Wednesday is my very last gathering with CSS for this semester...Maybe there is another one before the exam which is the exam mass...

Who'e life recently?Things at home were fine...Had a great weekend in Seremban with my family...

But the emo life somehow came up again when I reached Seremban this very morning...I followed Ah Thong's car back this morning...Then ZS called him if we wanna have breakfast together...Which we did at the end although we're gonna be late for lecture...

The both of us did not talk tho...I thought we were used to it since we don't talk much if we didn't see each other for the past days...I knew he was unhappy due to his family problem...Although at times,he might react like he didn't bother but deep in him...He bothers much...

I knew he will be coming at night with Ah Thong...But I did not sms him to ask if we're having dinner together...I suddenly felt like I did not want to bother bout it at that moment...So,I went on searching for Aaron for dinner...Although,he already bought his food but I still had my dinner with him...

When we came back,I saw ZS at the staircase of my house,smoking...I didn't talked much to him either,we just said hi....~And,that's all...

After dinner,we chatted for a while tho...And,he took is protein and milk back home,cox since his mom is not at home...He said...I don't know how far its true but I did not feel good at all that time...My feeling is always influenced by this person...And,I wonder why??

Later in the evening I received Mervin's call telling bout Julius' dad admitted to the hospital...I was worried then...And,I called Julius...I think I scared him too......Mervin and I managed to go to him...Of cox he was worried but there is nothing more he cab do for now but pray~~

And,I've got committee telling me bout her problem in the morning...He lost her direction in life and don't know what she needs and want to do...

Quite alot of things that comes up to me of a sudden...I just wished I could help them all but unfortunately,I really can't...All I can do now is pray that GOD listens to our prayer...Amen!

1st December 2010

Its December already~~Time is running super fast...I could not find a day to breathe well this week...I'm just too tired...I felt like not doing anything after that...~~

Thanks to Rainnie for the companion these days...We went to the photo shop just now...Looking at the pictures she took made me wanna develop my pics and put them in an album...

Alot of memories in TARC,CSS...So much that I can hardly count how many pictures were there...I knew the best thing that I'll be bringing away from TARC will be the memories that I had with my friends,buddies and family in TARC...

Time to leave KL is getting nearer...Anyhow...I've gotta spend my time to the fullest... ^^

Time after Time...

Time after time...Minutes after minutes...Every single second,its passing...

This noon's assignment made us appreciate time so so much...Cox we have only 4 mins to talk...Pei Cheng exceeded her time so the whole presentation was delayed...Our marks were deducted due to this...She cried,but it wasn't her bad tho...^^...She tried her very best to get it done on time but somehow,there's just too many thing that she needs to present...Anyhow...Its teamwork...We did not blame her for it...We are responsible for it too...=)...

We've got 1 assignment + 1 presentation done...2 more assignments to go this week...Seemed like am counting down eh??I want all this to end soon...So that people don't suffer much...HA!

Its been really tiring and stressed on the 30th of Nov 2010...Rainnie almost quarreled with him...Not to mention who...But cox the way he speaks really cuts people right into the heart...I'm not sure what is in his mind but he always need to do this...Thinking that he is the perfect one~~

Somehow,I did not say anything...Why?Cox,I'm tired talking to him...Its just too tired talking to this type of people...1st time in my life...I felt so...

Well,assignments are really driving us out of mind...Every converse with frens is...Assignments how ar??Am not complaining her but simply to update on the happening around me...HA!Its been tiring...~~

And...Why do I suddenly felt that I've changed?I'm not that caring and understanding anymore...Did I?

The song 最后一页 reminds me on a lot of things...Its still in my mind where I found it stucked...I want it out...But,too many memories that stops me from erasing it them all off...I will try my best!

Where are You?

Not knowing how to control...I burst out in tears again after talking to my mum on the phone...

Somehow,I needed accompany these days...Huhu~Went looking for people for dinner...But somehow...People are just busy...

I've told Dad that I'm not going to UK next year...But looking back...Suddenly...I really don't wanna go?

Life have been just hectic these days...Why?Cox,in my eyes and mind are just assignments...Presentations...This is the only semester that I felt so stressful...

Know what?I suddenly think sometimes,where are all my friends when I needed them the most?I've got so many friends...Or,should I say?Hi Bye friends?But at the end...I cried silently inside...

Why am I so Emo these days?I don't know too...I just felt that,I needed someone to talk to most of the time...

That is why,I wanted a pet so much...But Mum don't let me to...Haix...But,I'll get it when I start working.......

Bili Bala~~

Assignments...Assignments...Assignments.........Basically...This is the only word...I have in my brain these days...Alot of things left undone bcox of assignmentsss...Many many things cannot be completed due to assignments...Huhuuhuhuhuh~~~

What else do I have in mind??Erm.......My hp spoilt...Not sure,if I can fix it...Or else I'll gotta be getting a new cell...But...But...But.......

I want next week to pass as soon as possible...Bcox.....After next week then I'll have alittle more time for myself.........

I'm just too tired already......Huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuh~~~~

Sizzles After Awhile!

I'm finally here to do a write up...Have been away from here for...Few days??Hurmp...Anyhow...When I update my blog after a few days of silence in here...It normally meant...Quite alot of things happened around me...

Firstly,I finally said it out...I dunno where the guts came from but...I just told him... =0...The results??Erm...Of cox...Its a NO larrr...LOL~~I already knew what is the answer gonna be...Just that I want him to know what is in my heart all these while...And...We are just Buddies... ^^

Well,I thought I could but still I couldn't??Aikx!I still can't let it go somehow...Maybe its just not easy especially when you see this person so often...Almost everyday...?Hurmpp...It don't feel quite good tho...But,I still need to act normally like how we used to be... =)...Don't worry,am not gonna be emo over it...Time is all I need...

Sunday night...Was a lonely day for meeeee....~~I was all alone at home...Housemates weren't around...I'm all alone at home...Huhu~~Know what??A pet dog is all I wanted that time...SOBX!But,I just don't have it...I needed so much accompany that time...Friends were not able to come to my house...Then I wonder...Where are all my other friends??

I cried like a kid...Simply because,I'm too stressed out with many things around me these days...Needs me to make tough decisions...Which is something that am not good at...

I wished to stay back but...I want to go back to my family...I need to choose only one!Now...I think I know what I have in mind...

What bout energy level these days?Its actually quite low...Cox.......Assignments are never ending till next week... ^^

Today~ ^^

I thought of sleeping for half and hour this noon but ended up 3hours of nap...I was super tired lor...XD...He was there in the living room drawing his art...Erm...Chatted quite a lot during dinner just now...Got to know a lot of things...He same the same thoughts and opinion with me as we chatted bout the topic...Erm...Ohh ya...Not "that" topic but something else bout our friend...

Erm...Maybe...Maybe...Its still a maybe where I don't have the courage to do so...Aiyaiyaiiiii~~Things are just becoming more difficult...Hurmp...

Why am close to most people and at the end...It ended up like this?Huhuh~~

Crappy crap...LOL~

Its Thursday...This meant that...Weekend is coming already~Weekend arrives meant...Weekdays are coming up next~Well...Its a cycle tho~

Erm...What bout now?Am now in the library...Wanna go see Dr.Yeo in regards of it...Gotta be waiting for 2pm for replacement class...~

I wanna go Pasar Malam tonight...I wanna buy "di di gei"~LOL~

Erm......That's all for now.... ^^

I need courage for it too............... =)

It was A Calling~

It was a calling all the time...

I went out to share on during the formation today...Amazingly,I did not cry...LOL~~

But somehow...Am tired...

I would wanna cherish all my time here in KL...

As I may leave for Seremban in a month and a half...?

As am deciding which to go on...~

Another thing to do...Is ask tomoro or Friday...If I see him...~

Maybe,its the real time to make things clear...

I am ready for the answer...Just that,I want to know...~

Alot more to write but am tired now...GTG~

NITEX! ^^

Its a Holiday Morning~ ^^

Its a Holiday morning~I wonder if all are still on their very sweet bed now?Why am I awake so early?Hurmp...Cox,I've got a Leadership Formation to attend in Church...So I've gotta get up early...~

How's life?Erm...As usual...Its been tiring ever since this semester started...Non-stop activities,Non-stop assignments,Non-stop tutorials...Well,I'l still try my very best in enjoying all these that I have now...Cox,I might be only here for a month and a half...Then,I'll be leaving KL~How sure?I'm still considering it...Of cox,if I'm given a chance...Well,of a sudden...I don't know which way to go...Seremban or KL?

He is back again after 2weeks missing in action...I knew,I said...Its a Full Stop...But,why is it that...The thoughts and feelings came back?I'm in contradiction again...Same thing that am gonna be doing...Making him protein everyday...Maybe,its just like what Julius said...He just wanna be taken care of?Do you think I should ask?So that I know where I stand?

This is not something that I should be thinking of now...But,somehow...It came back again...Erm...People in CSS seems to be having this things to think of also...HA!After Julius and I calculated...ALmost 7 of us that have this matters to solve...Haha~!The flowers in CSS just bloomed...~Isn't it funny?

Back Here Dy~~ ^^

Am back here again...Have been no where but still here...LOL~

As usual busy busy busy...I wonder if its cox...Final year?I felt like,I've missed out alot of things...Outing with friends,dinner with friends...Erm...I felt extreme tired these days...I'm lacking of sleep...Sometimes,sleepless nights pulak...

Time is passing extremely fast too...Its week 8 already...Fast eh??

Know what?I've finally came to a conclusion to put a full stop at it!Probably,I've done too much...Worthwhile or not...I'll just take them as the memories...^^...Maybe,I'll just take it as treating 'em' as m best friend...

I'll limit myself to all am doing...Whatever it is...I just wish to have enough energy to do everything that am assigned to...Wished to have much much strength to get through everything!Have much much courage to handle things!

I need a lot of support this time round...Few times,I felt like giving up...But,alot more things that I've not done yet...I need to carry on!

Core Leadership Camp!

This is the camp that made me discover myself so so much!

AMWAY Core Leadership Camp

The Beach~~

Leon LOO~~

Lunch at the Beach~~Huuuu~~!

Chong V...~

Our Kaki~~HAHA~!

DIAMONDS TO BE!

My Upline Mentors!

My Coming Diamond!

Leaders!

Wei Quan ** April

Outing with My Sweety-Buddies~

Its been ages,since I went out with them...Till then,we decided to go outing sama sama...Following are the pictures taken...~~

We basically buat kacau in 100Yen~LOL~

Apa pun guna untuk Posing~Haha~~

Its Snow Flake~Nice~!Banana flavor is nice!

My Buddies~!

Me**Busuk Pei

Happy Birthday...Donut girl!HA!

US~~

Piggies~~!

Work of the creatures!

I was happy that I was able to make it together with them...Cox,its been really really long that meet them all~~And,this outing actually happened end of last month...~Till now only I have the time to post the lovely pictures here...LOL~~ XD...I'm missing them all~~

Thanks!

I just came back the Core Leadership camp yesday...It was a totally different from other camps that I attended...Many many things that I've learned from it...I've learned how to be a true leader...!Knowing your path and your goal then only you're able to lead others...

We were left alone in the jungle on Saturday night...It was a total different experience at all!I was afraid at first...It was total dark and you see no lights!But you know what?Once you have something in mind which you really want to solve and settle...You'll not worry bout the darkness anymore because you have other thing to thing about...

I've got to know more about myself...I know where I stand...I know what I want!And,I know what I need to do to achieve them!In life...There won't be much opportunity...When it comes,you really need to grab whole of it!Things don't happen by chance...Maybe,its really that GOD planned it for us~!

I thank GOD that I've found AMWAY!I thank GOD that Wee Chien signed me up too!

I always believe,to become extraordinary in life,You'll need to do extraordinary things!

I thank Chong V for leading me,I thank April and Edward for coaching me,I thank my family members for being supportive!

My Feelings~~

Well,life...life...What bout life?

Life have not been pleasant these days...It had been hot and cold...Happy BUT sad...What am I saying?You can't get me too right??Maybe,not your fault here...Even I can't get myself...

A lot of things to think of...Something,not to say tragic cox its not that super serious...But,something did happened to me and my family...Something that happened over and over again...And this made me cry no matter how many times this comes to happen!

I thought,I will feel better after releasing my stress out...But,it unlikely did...I cried this noon...Although,I was hyper in the early noon with my frens...At the end of the day,I still couldn't take it...

Why can't they think like an adult?Why do they still wanna act like a kid?Another thing is that they do have responsibilities to be taken care of??Sometimes,its just kinda pissed off...You get me?

Well,maybe I don't blame him for all that happens...It takes both hands to clap...Agree?He is just stuck in the middle...Which he might also not know how and what to do?

Anyhow,I felt better now...After conversing with Mangga Busuk,Chong V and April...I shared this story of mine with my sideline(with the presents of my DD)...She have almost the same family probs as mine...So,I really hope that...She will build the business faster...Stronger so that she will not face the same thing!

Thanks to those I have spoken on phone with...Your advises were meaningful to me...~!

Posted at Klang...~LOL~~

At Chong V's house...~~~~

Full Stop~

Its time for the

FULL STOP!

I dislike,Taken for Granted!

I'm finally back here to blog...I have been superb busy these days...Being so freaking tired...Assignments here...Tutorials there...Suddenly,I think...What is life for??

I've been emo the passed days...Having a weird guy in my assignment group is not something good...Have to pretend to be weird with him also...Just to keep him happy...Walao...Its just so difficult being fake...~~~

And,I simply hate being taken for GRANTED!!I have this friend of mine!Doesn't want to do his assignment...4 of us advised him to do...!To start'!And,all he did was palying his stupid mahjong at his friend's house...Goodness...~

Ended up...Doing it last night...Whereas the deadline is today 3pm!Helped him to do from 11.30pm till 3.30am...~Know what?I dun wish for anything in return but at least appreciate what people did!

Sometimes,I just understand...Why?Haix...He have changed!I'm just tired sometimes...Simply because he is my close fren~Maybe,its just time for me to put a full stop...~

I have been tired...~~

I so wanna cry...~But,who is there available for the shoulder?

Although,I've been stupid~But,I still smile!

Wished to be one of a kind~Can I?

Can I also smile like this?

Know what?Each time when am unhappy,I look for their pics~~ ^^

Its her...I'm feeling better now~~ =)

Tired!

I just found myself like a dead fish now...TIRED!

Got to know that things that I've been doing these while ain't as good as I thought...I've not been firm enough in leading them...I always failed to do this!

I'm just feeling very tired!Mentally,emotional,physically tired!I wish people could just understand me!I've used all my energy...I've used up all I have to make things good but seems like I've failed...

This have to come to me!I've been happy the few days back...Enjoying my days cox I've achieve something but this time...This strikes me again...

Life is never easy~Dealing with this kind of situation really made me think of the world outside!

I just wish you all could understand me!I always wanna be a superwoman!But,I really can't!!!

Nicer Day Yo~!

一天，过了。。。

Another day had passed us by...~

As I said,I didn't managed to donate blood this time...Again!Haix!But,looking at the bright side...Maybe,I really cannot donate blood cox,I'm too exhausted these days...~Called Mom to tell her my goal in the Amway business...I really hope it can be a DREAM COME TRUE!

He's been here again this week...Erm...Somehow,will think of the matter again...But,maybe...I just need to lessen it? =x

Weeks after weeks...Getting busier and busier...And,one weird person in class is treating me weirdly...HA!Hopefully,its simply because I talk more to him so he is reacting back like that~~ ^^

Assignments and tutorials are lining up long long long~I've been missing home again and again...I wanna go home!Maybe after these days back home~Not sure when I'll be home again~I just got so many things to do in KL~

Sometimes,I find it difficult also if you have too many friends...~LOL~Got me?Cox,its just not easy to meet them all up...Hang out with them...Sometimes,hard for them to understand you...I am trying my very best to prioritise now...I've missed CSS gathering 2 times...Including this round~Not that I don't love CSS anymore...But...Urghhh~Nvm...I felt bad for not joining the gatherings...Aikx!

Anyhow,its 2am+...Gotta be sleeping now already~Hopefully tomoro is a nicer day ahead! Cheers! ^^

Short Bloggy Blog~

Only one day that am away from my blog...Why is it like I felt its been ages?Hurmp...Have been tired these days again...Tutorials are driving me crazy...Lotsa things to be done and...I'm missing home badly...When can I go home?I'm too caught up with too many activities...Here and there...There and here...Its just tiring man!Aikx~~

Chong V lectured me again last night...Maybe,I just need to hold on tight to my dreams and not let it go!This is really gonna keep me going...This is a short blog cox am now in the library...Gotta get back to the college hall now...ZS and Thong are donating blood and...~~I cannot donate blood this round!Ish~~Sad isn't it??BRB ya~~Taz for now!

Why?Can't Sleep?

I'm a little too excited to fall asleep...~

Aikx~~~Why ar??Why ar??I dunno pun~

Hurmp...But,I just need to sleep cox...Tomoro busy lagi~~ XD

Morning Post~

Days passed again~~Due dates are coming nearer and nearer...~Erm...Considered to be progressing?Erm...Hopefully,this time won't be like the previous ones where...~We do it real last minute?

Went gym with Kevin yesday...~Told him what happened...But the chances seemed so so shallow...Just friends?I'm not sure...I keeps wondering...What will be the answer be?Will I be able to take it?

I might be spending lesser time at home next week bcox,I need to bring prospect and downline to open meeting le...Hurmp...Let's see as time goes...If it will be,will be~Pray that I'll get the answer soon!

Clear~

This person have been hanging around my house for almost a week...~

I'm just worried that I'll suddenly get too used to it...~

And if,its not like that anymore...~I'll find it hard to get away~

I'm starting to get confused again!

Frankly,I just hate this feeling~

I don't know if it meant anything~

Why is it always that am always treated so?

I know its not something bad~

But,sometimes...You just want to know...

What is it all about~Why is it so...~

Maybe you won't really know what am talking bout here...

But,I just wanna let it out~

Why is it that,when people are around us~

We act differently?

We have so much to say/talk bout when there's no one around?

Maybe that didn't mean anything~

I just want to know what is it like?

Should I ask?Should I not ask?

I know its not the time now for me to think bout this...

Somehow,I just wanna make things clear~

Life~

Its another day of life...~

Life have been getting busier each day...~

Many things awaits to be completed...~

Assignments...Tutorials...Presentation...~

However,things still needed to be done...~

I hope everyone will be able to get their things done too...~

It have been here these few days...~

Alright...Think of nothing...~~

Carry on with life...~If it happens,it happens...

If not then...~Its bcox,God have better plans for me! ^^

The week have Arrived!

Its been like few days back when I actually blogged the long long blog after some time...~Well,the week that am waiting for had finally arrived...

Camp had finally ended...~It was better than expected...~Juniors were participative...Seniors were okay too...~Well,as usual,you know me...When I climb up the hill or I go jungle trekking...I use to ponder alot...Which I felt all those made sense to me lar...

I was happy because,juniors did also take care of me much~ ^^

Although at first,I had somehow have some not so good feeling...Probably due to lack of sleep...But after that am fine...~I managed to know many people...How many?Well,maybe another 40 more friends?=) Including the activity instructors...4o plus~~

And I found out something bout my committees...They are all so not serious people lo...Only meeting they are so serious...They are just playful and fun people! ^^ I got to know them more during the camp...Got to have fun with them through out..,Its just great!

Many many things again crossed my mind...He have been here these days...Dropping by after class...Erm...Now you know...Made me think lagi~~But,maybe this time not so much already...

Oh ya~I got to know that the instructors are of the same age as me...And some younger...~The one that same age with me was a good person to talk to but...Unfortunately,we didn't have enough time chat bout...Aiyayaya~~

Anyhow,this is the week that I've been waiting for...But,I'm not any free than the weeks before...Now,I've got whole lot of assigments waiting for me...Tutorials...Oh Boyyy~~Its just no easy...I wish to get it all through~~With all my friends~~

I love you!

I wonder why...This semester made me realize many many things about life...These things simply cannot be learned from the notes and textbooks we study...

Many things happened lately...Among friends...Classmates...Surroundings...And...Many more...

I have been superb busy the past few weeks...I hardly have time for my friends,family,society,Amway and even myself...Why was I so busy that time??I don't know...Only thing I knew was...Running up and down college looking for advisor,cracking my head how to get students to the camp,how to get things done...

Had a great outing with my Diploma Buddies last week...We did something that we wanted to do for so long...Was a wholesome tiring day but worthwhile...~Hurmp...We all looked quite good in the picture...~ ^^

Had great lecture from Chong V...He told me...Its time to let something off...~I need to prioritize...!Same as what Mangga Busuk told me...But sometimes,its just too difficult to do so when everything seemed so important...And I felt like completing it all!Which I sometimes can,but I suffered most of the time...Or maybe,even...I didn't get it done nicely??

I found myself very tired these days...I wish I could really have my time back after this weekend...

Especially tired ears!Know what?Conflict happened in class...And the person that had problem with others is the one that told me "Erm...Its the final semester already...I dun wish there will be problem or quarrel lor..." And see what happened at the end?She's the one that created problem to the whole class...And want everyone to get involved in solving her problem...Damn lar!Ish!

Then another one,having problem with her roommate...Cried so much...~

Wonder what is happening now...So many problems happening here and there...And,Emily Fah didn't wanna get herself involved in these matters...Simply because...Am just tired over it...I shouldn't be the one looking for the solutions for them...Right??They are big enough to sort things out themselves...Come on!21 years old dy lar....Have some guts to handle things yourself k??

I actually forgotten bout the matter the past weeks...I didn't have the time to keep myself remembering on it...~~But,it came back this week...We spent much time together...And somehow,it came back again~It is really like what Winnie said?Its not the real feeling?I really wanna let go...But how?When?Where?I really hope...And wish...I dun need to think bout it anymore as when I see the situation...It hurts!

Tomoro...Opps...I should say...~Later is the Leadership Convention Camp dy...~Seeing my committees so participative...Made me happy!Even Raj told me "Your committees very active ar!" LOL~~Tiba-tiba I bangga dy~Wakaka~~Of cox lar...LOL~~

Its a collaborating camp...But,I see my committees working hard towards it!Although we didn't managed to get the number we wanted...But at least we all played our part to search for more! ^^ Right??

Seriously,happenings around me these days made me realize alot bout life,bout cherish,bout love,bout chances and choices,bout appreciating!Not that I dun think bout this last time...But now,more!I lead a blind man this noon~His world is all dark and black but he still survived!He dunno which direction to go!But he still goes on!He dunno which way to get out from the lrt but he still did!

So why are we complaining much?Learn to appreciate before all these are gone!Learn to love!Learn to be selfless!Learn to think bout others!Especially,Family!They are the nearest!No matter what they say,what they complain,what they scold,what they grumble...Its all because they care!

Camp is coming nearer...I need to off to bed now...As,I'll need to take care of the juniors moro too...~~All the best to myself!I wanna say,I love you!To who?Everyone!Cox,I love because,God love!Amen! ^^

BRB~~

Their true colours are all out~Gotta be blogging tonight when back~~

Have been super busy these days~~~

Bcox They Cared!

Its 10 10 10...What ya gonna do with the day?Erm...I'll be going over to my uncle's house tonight...Hoping things that needed to be done will be done!

I'm still trying as hard to get away from things blocks me...Its not easy at times...Especially,when you are just too attached to it...~Well,attached here don't mean computer games ya...~LOL~

I hope people around me could be understanding at times...I felt that my time is getting lesser and lesser...

Words can be hurtful sometimes,the way treated may also be hurtful...Till I think back...Its all because they care for me!He didn't wanna hide anything from me but just bombarded everything towards me!Simply because,he wants me to change...

If I want a extraordinary life,I need to do extraordinary things!There is no free lunch in this world!I need to continue loving what am doing~

Its never easy to get out from the comfort zone but its needed to!

Priorities!

Phone call with Chong V and April made me realise more...Aikx~~

Its always the priority problem~I found its still the priorities problem...I'm trying very hard to do what is needed and what is not................

I will try my very best to deal with it!!!

Sizzle Updates~~

Heart break hotel has gotta end anyhow...Right?I'm still left 40 students for the camp...I shall never give up as...I still have a week to promote it...Although,its like no choice but...I've gotta kick some ass and come out with 40 people...

Gotta be keeping up with much spirit as...~Juniors are looking up on me...^^...So,I just need to play my very part...

What bout life these days?Erm...I'm fine so far...Just that,I've got many many homework coming up...Well,final sem is really no no easy~ XD...Of this 3 years in TARC,1st year having so much homeworks...And we need to present them all...Huhu~No matter what,I'll still need to enjoy college life to the max!

I found out something,life without music made me emo~LOL~

Erm......Martin is back in Malaysia...Went Yum Cha with him that day...With the Hiaw people...LOL~

What else??Bout the matter??I don't think so much bout it these days...Maybe,cox I've been busy with my routines?And,maybe what Winnie said is right...Is it cox am a Gemini??LOL~~Or?I myself don't know what I always wanted?

But,I definitely know what I want this month!I wanna go SP!Trying and searching all ways to reach it man!

Seriously missing home!Misssssiiinnnngggg MY MUMMY!MY DADDY!

HeartBreak~

It was an heart-breaking day today~

Simply because,their response are not as good as thought...~

Are we able to hit the target of 100 students??

What is the problem that they are not joining us in the camp?

Promotional mix problem??

Lack of??

OMG~I suddenly felt so failed.........

Aikxxxx~~~Fineee~~Life still goes ooonnn~~~~ ^^

I'll Still Smile At The Day~

Time passed super fast~

CSS Annual Camp has ended...Project Eagle Graduation ended too...Much things is gonna end soon~~I wonder what bout LIFE?

I have been busy-ing ever since the first week started...This and that...That and this~~Hurmp...Had gone through alot of things these 2 weeks...

Things came in and out of my life~I have so much to write till I dunno where to begin...CSS Annual Camp had ended...And it ended so so soon...I have to be back early due to some things that I cannot avoid~Its a painful decision made...As,I love CSS so much and leaving early that day its like leaving them down...Aikx~~I had teary eyes that day when I was on Dwayne's car~But somehow,I learned so much there that...The bible sharing actually struck me so much on my heart!

"For God,everything is possible"...Somehow,I felt that,God is telling "Its possible my child...I'll give you when time arrives"...Its just a wonderful camp beyond description!Know why?Seeing them all grow...Its so much like a mom looking at the kids grow... ^^

Project Eagle graduation~It was simply awesome also as my Mangga Busuk and Jie went...Dr.Ignatius's words were powerful~~I couldn't concentrate for some reasons till then I sms Chong V...He said "Nvm,pay attention!Everything will be fine!"

Things that am thinking these days were...Is it worthwhile?Should it still go on this way?Is it what I wanted?How to choose?You know when you're too caught up with too many things in life and you'll take everything very seriously?Get what I mean?And that is the time,you find it hard,extremely hard to choose which one to attend to...~~Have you meet this kind of situation before? =)

Getting to know more on True and Fake people~~Huhu~~

Results' out~I failed 2 papers...I still cannot get over Econs~!Why har??Aikx...~~Anyhow,life still goes on~I still need to eat and sleep...So,all I can do is...Work harder this sem~Right??

Looks like my schedule and activities are like....~~Biz Admin Camp~~Arrgghhh~~Planning still not done yet~~Dunno where are we at...~Aikx...~Its no easy to collaborate with other societies~Because they have different ways of doing things and...Its not easy getting them to work together at times...I didn't even meet their committees before...LOL~~

However...I still gotta smile~~ ^^

Its her Smiling Face~~NICE~!

Its just so so so adorable...Right??

The Earth is also Smilling~ ^^... Why not you??

This is Super Adorable!Eh??

A Year Ago~

One year ago~~I was the committee for the camp...This year...~~Am the participant...Happy eh??

Anyhow,I went back to college just now to meet up the juniors bout the camp...I wonder how many will attend out of 700 plus students...Wondered the way i deliver the msg was right?Wonder if they are really attracted??

I kept wondering while I was walking my way back~

Wondering bout the vertical alignment...Between,Family,Friends,Business,Studies,Societies?

Sometimes,when all these clashes...Which would you choose?I'm just not cool at this~~

I'll be heading over to Cameron shortly...Will this be my last time joining this camp?Or not?

The End Of Week 1 Already?

Hurmp...What is significant to be written today?

Week one ended already~Soon right?I felt that too...Had my Diploma Buddy's bday celebrated at TGI Friday's this noon~Hurmp...Had been a long long time since we meet up...And,know what?Once I reached...We chatted all the way till the food arrives-while eating-finished food-got few glasses of drinks refilled~~~The chatting doesn't stop...Haha~~Well,simply because...We had things in common and we have not been chatting like this for like ages?Ha!

Many many things were discussed...~Talked...~Many stories told...LOL~They found out bout my stuff and I found out theirs too...~Like?Hurmpp...Disgusting Stories?Haha~Discussing or Disgusting?~~

So then,we left Wangsa Walk at 6pm~Was supposed to be a nice good bye to them...But this person have tooooooo call me at that time and I attended to that call...~At the end...I got pissed off with that stupid call!

I on speaker phone so that my hsemates would hear the things said...Not for bad reasons...But because,I wanna re-confirm with what I've heard~You know,sometimes...Its just tiring dealing with people like this?Well,being Egoistic...Like what we learned in Moral n Etika?

Haix~~I shouldn't be complaining much...I know...But since,they don't wanna compromise and they dun wanna pull a step back...FINE THEN!I'll do it!Happy now??Me and Pei Cheng discussed over the phone and found that........

Don't need to make a big fuss as they have their choosing power as well...They can choose who they wanna be with.......Making me headache and darn feel like vomiting~~Cox,suddenly,I felt there are just too many things for me to digest and fit them all into my head!You know the feeling?Its just...Sickening!

Well,tomoro will be CSS Annual Camp already~I should be excited over it because...Am the participant this year~~ ^^ Gonna push all these nonsense away~And enjoy my camp to the fullest!Not sure if this is my last time attending CSS Camp...But hopefully not...~~ ^^

My head is effing painful!!

Why Do I Always Screw Things Up?

Its been a long time ever since I posted~ Holidays have been great...Was enjoying it much~Being at home made me felt so blessed~

I came back last night to KL~Looking back at my schedule...I could feel the stress already~There's just too much to be done for me?Is it that am too ambitious in getting many things done at a time?And at the end,I screw up things?

I always fails in prioritizing things~Always dunno which should come first?Which second?And at the end...I'll make people unhappy?Is that really me?This is how life should be?I felt that,I've got to diversify a lot and till,I've neglected many things in life...~

I've made people unhappy,sad,angry.......I know my sorry wouldn't mean much because,I've made the matter arise...

Is it that am too greedy?Wanting this and that at the same time?

I used to tell myself,I'll try my best to not screw up this but...This is what I did most of the time....

There's another thing that is bothering me now...I'm still thinking whether its a should or should not~~~Whether,its a will be or will not be??I needed much courage in doing this...No easy...~Somehow,I'll cherish every moment now...Hoping things would fall in place...Shall I let GOD decide?

Each time when I feel its possible,it became impossible~~I really need to have myself prepared if at the end of the day...What is the results or outcome gonna be?

I'm still Here~~ ^^

I'll be heading out now to hunt for the angel~ ^^

Its just the Beginning~

Where have I been these days?Hurmpp...No where but here...Still on earth...Were struggling for the papers last few days...

Somehow...The 2 weeks had ended...And,its already ended...~You wouldn't wanna ask me how I did for my exam~~Well...Past is Past...No point talking it over again~~

Anyhow,exam have ended but the beginning of everything is starting~

How ridiculous is it to receive a message even before me coming out from my exam~It was my friend that said she was super bored!Ask me where I wanna go after my exam~LOL~~1st time doing this...

Slept for 4 hours-Sat for 3 hours paper-Headed home-To Sg Wang-Back home at 10pm-To Julius home till 4am...

Erm...That was how I spent the very hours of my holiday~Was wholesome tiring but...Something extraordinary that I did...I would say~~

This noon~Went to KLCC for book fair...~Erm...I was kinda annoyed...Due to some reasons...Cox,I didn't force her to go...And she went...Now,she complaints bout BOOKS~~OMG~~

However,I managed to get myself a book~~ ^^ Its not easy to get one especially,you need to consider so much on the price...You know...Good books are expensive!LOL~~

The one I bought was RM29.90...And,it made me forgone 2 things that I wanted to buy...At the end...I put them back to where they belonged...Huhu~~

Why titled as-- Its just the Beginning?Because,I've got lotsa things to be done during this break~~Fully utilizing them...Hope to come out best with the holidays~~ ^^

Anddddd.......~~ Happy Holidays TARCians~~ :)

Tangan Gatal saje~~

What bout the day?

Nothing much happened today,just that I "tangan gatal" wanna blog saja...~Erm...My junior's punyerrr paper all over dy...Then can sms me and tell me some more...How kind eh??LOLzZZ~~

One thing I wanna say...I'm super gaining weight lurh...Eating like no body's business...LOL~Especially when I sleeps late these days due to the examsssss...Yaaa~Blame it on the exam...Haha~~

You know after being so hyper with juniors n frens around...Tiba-tiba am left alone at home...Some kind of emo feeling will surely pass me by...So,I've decided to head back to Seremban tomoro with my Mangga Busuk...Since he is going back tomoro so why not hop on his car??Xixi~

Will be meeting him at Bukit Jalil tonight cox its Tessla's Pre-Birthday celebration...Will be with the Loveliesss again tonight...Yayyy~~And there I'll be eating again...Huhu~~Eating Fiesta for me...

I'm suddenly missing something...Know what??My little doggie that I used to have last time...It was given away...I wonder if she is still here....Huhu~~

感恩，就会永久。。。

Why did I insisted to go PJ while exam is the next day?Well,because its the Appreciation Night where I feel 感恩 is something really important in life...It was a great night where we really spoke out our hearts in thanking our Uplines...

I don't know how and what people think about Amway and Britt Worlwide...But,this is a place where I found myself transformed...Maybe still not a lot of changes yet but at least I learned alot about Family,Life,Personal Values...

Its like a Family that we are building this business together...We have Our Goal to Set,We have Our Dreams to Be Achieved...!Its not all about selling,buying...Toothpaste,Shampoo business...Here is a real worthwhile place to be in...

When we the candle was handed over to me last night for the thanking speech...I was about to have teary eyes...Because,the amount of help,advise,support,spirit in me are beyond description...Words they say are just as powerful...They didn't give up on me when I didn't have any results...They kept me going...They did not left me alone...

谢谢你们，Wee Chien, Chong V, April&Edward 和 Ken Lee & Carmen Goh!

I will always remember all that you all have done!

Wanna Say...I've got alot to SAY~~Xixi~~

I wanna sayyyy.......

I've got alot to post later after my paper at 9am.......

I've got so much to sayyyy~~Xixi~~

Anyhow....One more to go at 9am.......

All the best to meeeeee~~~ ^^

No Idea~~

Had home cooked meal for 2 days...I'm missing home again~~

Exam is till the 7th~The very last day of all the exams in TARCollege...They have been coming to my house for revision these days...Their exam will be ending this Friday but mind is only next week...I'm gonna study at home alone then...Owwww...

Erm...Why am I feeling tired recently?Didn't had enough sleep?But,I felt that I've slept quite alot der??Something wrong somewhere?No idea~~

Julius played guitar just now...Played a few songs that made me ponder and think of it again~~AikzzZZ~~Anyhow,gotta study for the Operations Management paper already~~ ^^

WeeeeHeee~~

Its going to be 9am...~Duh??LOL~~

Hurmp...Not very sure why am I so tired these days...Probably because,my sleeping time has gone upside now recently... :P Anyhow,there is something that I keep remembering during this period of time...I didn't say...Put it aside 100%...Well...Don't you worry...Its not something bad tho...Its a positive thing!

Dinner at Jordan's house last night was great...Another gathering for us to get together...With all the partners in the business...I realised,after the Family Reunion function...We all got to know each other more...And the Fun of building this business together although we are sidelines...~~

Time really helps...Well,maybe you may know that am having some emotional problem over some stuff recently...But,after all busy-ness studying...After all busy-ness here and there...Am not taking this matter so seriously anymore...Perhaps,he had made the right move... ^^ Thanks!

Coming paper is on the 2nd...~Operations Management...Hurmp...No matter what...I need work it out!Its hard to start on it...But,I'll still gotta do ittttt~~

Stay Positive is the key!!! ^^

MeeeeEEeeee~~

Ermm...Exam made me wanna camwhoreee....WakakaxxXX~~Anyhow,some pictures below are my original picx without editing~~LOL~~ ^^

Forgive me for my crazinesssss~~~

While waiting for Julius~

In Julius' car...~Waiting for him again~~

Lagiii~~

At Foh Yuen-Vegetarian Restaurant~

Bloobbb~~Bloobb~~