Time After Time...

I have not been quite well lately. Had a hard time going through gastritis. Without knowing it was actually gastritis at the very beginning. I do not know what is the cause of it. Stress? Work? Busy life? I really do not know.

Life seems to be getting tougher day by day. Challenges coming from all sorts of direction. Few days back, I suddenly realised, there are a lot of things in life that we need to take care of. You would ask, "Like what?". We need to care for our Family, Relationship, Friendship, Work, Environment and Ourselves.

Not trying to complain or anything but, feeling life is never easy if I do all these by myself without God!

I'm now engaged with the RCIA (Rites of Initiation of Adults). I have learned and encountered much from there. It's a way and solution for me to keep my life balanced.

Thursday was Jane's sharing. She shared it quite well. Suddenly, this thought came to my mind saying. "Emily, you are no longer a small girl. You have grown up!" Well, maybe you would see this as a good thing, right? As for me, I felt a little too sad. Maybe because, sometime back I have been the youngest in the group, community and have always been the youngest in the family. I felt pampered, felt sayang, felt always kena jaga and that feeling is just so comfortable. I don't feel to get out from the comfort zone.

Not to say that am not I don't feel  all those now. I still do. But it's somehow different already. I need to live like a grown up.

I will continue to seek guidance and way to live my life. I know, I seriously, really cannot do it alone.

An Online Friend That Made Me Ponder Much.

Recently, met an online friend. Till now, I do not know if this is a real person. Or is this just a prank.

Somehow, this person's appearance created a little havoc to my relationship. But wasn't all his fault cox I have fallen into it. Anyhow, we have not been contacting ever since the problem arises.

I do not know how but I wanted to thank him for making me ponder and think much bout my future. I can no longer contact this person because, I know that, the problem will come back again.

Maybe I was still too naive. But, now that am thinking hard on how long and how far this can go. I really hope God will show me the way.

Friends...

We had our CNY dinner at Sushi Tei. It was my very first time there to this Japanese Restaurant. With Kathleen and Rachel. Was a bit reluctant when I was asked to meet them at Pavillion. Which I thought I could go home early to rest a while then wait for them to come meet me at Wangsa Maju. Things always turns out different with how I expect them to be. Indeed, I have much fun hanging out with the both of them. There's this unhappy, sad feelings when I got down from the car. Because I don't know on when I will meet her again. But I'll definitely meet her again in June.

Till then, I met my friend in Wangsa Maju. Got to know that he is also leaving soon. It was a shocking news for me as I did not expect that too. Haix. He told me that is part of life. But I never thought it will happen so quickly. I'm gonna miss these 2 friends of mine badly.

Today was also a day where I've booked the flight tickets for myself and Mum. I have not done this for my entire life before. I've only did booking for Preslly to come back to KL and back to KK. But never for myself. Today, I've did it! And I felt a bit of achievement because I always wanted to bring Mum on the plane. Although, its just within Malaysia. But it's something that am happy about.

Preslly is coming this weekend. He will be here probably for a week. It's a mixed feelings that I have all together. Happy? Unhappy? I seriously do not know how am I feeling right now. Something that I want to tell him but I just do not know how to say it out.

When it comes to situation like this, I always question myself "What is this all about?". I seriously do not get it. Sometimes, rather to stay single. And which, I did not feel that am in a relationship anymore. Hurmp. This is a big question. "Then will still hold on to it?".

Changes, Difference

Its been a long long time since I last posted here in my bloggy blog. I almost forgotten on it's existence. How's life at recent? Many many things that I have gone through these years. Many many that I have encountered. Many many things happened that made me change from an easily bullied person to a human like lion. Or is it just I have had a bad temper recently?

Those who follows my blog, stay tune for more updates from me. That's all for the time being. This post is like a teaser for me to start blogging again. :)