I have not been quite well lately. Had a hard time going through gastritis. Without knowing it was actually gastritis at the very beginning. I do not know what is the cause of it. Stress? Work? Busy life? I really do not know.
Life seems to be getting tougher day by day. Challenges coming from all sorts of direction. Few days back, I suddenly realised, there are a lot of things in life that we need to take care of. You would ask, "Like what?". We need to care for our Family, Relationship, Friendship, Work, Environment and Ourselves.
Not trying to complain or anything but, feeling life is never easy if I do all these by myself without God!
I'm now engaged with the RCIA (Rites of Initiation of Adults). I have learned and encountered much from there. It's a way and solution for me to keep my life balanced.
Thursday was Jane's sharing. She shared it quite well. Suddenly, this thought came to my mind saying. "Emily, you are no longer a small girl. You have grown up!" Well, maybe you would see this as a good thing, right? As for me, I felt a little too sad. Maybe because, sometime back I have been the youngest in the group, community and have always been the youngest in the family. I felt pampered, felt sayang, felt always kena jaga and that feeling is just so comfortable. I don't feel to get out from the comfort zone.
Not to say that am not I don't feel all those now. I still do. But it's somehow different already. I need to live like a grown up.
I will continue to seek guidance and way to live my life. I know, I seriously, really cannot do it alone.
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