Something Different

Erm...Finally JESUS' birthday had arrived!This year's Xmas is something quite different from the previous one I had.Only this year that I truly understand the TRUE meaning of Xmas.All the while,Santa Clause and Xmas party is all I think about.But after I went to Michael's place for the Xmas party,it was all a different kind of thing that I used to see Xmas is.Tomorow is my first ever time stepping out from Malaysia...HahahaxxxXX...To where???Erm....Just to Malaysia's neighbour lo....YEap...Its Singapore lo....WakakaxxXXX....Ermm...Peaceful Xmas is coming back to me again!I hope that everything will turn out to be REAL FINE!!!.Maybe i really need to learn to wipe off the past and start my life anew!Hurmp...Out of a sudden,I fell like I'm gonna miss everyone in Malaysia.Although its just a 3 days holiday in Singapore.But i'm going to live without my hp for 3 days....aikz!!!

I WILL MISS YOU ALL!!!!
MERRY XMAS MY FRIENDS!!!!
HAVE A BLESSED HOLIDAY!!!
LOVE YOU ALL!!!!
DON'T FORGET TO MISS ME WHEN I'M AWAY!!!

Please Go AWAY!

If there's someone that can really understand how I feel now!!My brother just called...Saying that he is admmitted to the hospital!I just want these things to go away!!!I had enough of all this thing!!!All I want is just a PEACEFUL XMAS!!!I'm just can't stop bursting out into tears!After looking back at all that had happened!!!I'm stressful!I'm tired!Things seemed to be happening over and over again!How can someone help me??Is this all my life is about??Problems...Problems...And Problems??Each time I've stand up still to be strong...Things will come back to me again!!I'm just sick and tired!!!I wish that Problems can go away from me!!!HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I need HELP!!!!I NEED YOU!!!!

Back To The Old Dursty LIFE!!Stress!!

I had my Economics test done!!Thank GOD!!I was very stressful over it!!Studies till tears roll down from my face.What happened to me??I've tried to control myself!But I can't!!I've FAILED to control myself again!!Headache!Headache!Am finally back in SEREMBAN.Didn't come back last week.So,ya...Am back...Sigh...Each time I come back from KL.There'll sure be stories...Stories that is not I DO NOT LIKE TO HEAR!!But I'm the only one at home that mom can throw her frustration to...So,i need to lend my her my ears.It had been a long time that i've not feel stressful over my family problems.But seems like my life is always like that.Nothing can change it.It's the FAH FAMILY INHERITANCE!!!CAN NEVER BE CHANGED!!What's wrong with everyone??I wish i can be a SUPERWOMAN that really help things to be better!!Can someone help me??XMAS is just one more week from now...I want a PEACEFUL XMAS!!I NEED YOU!!

Untitled...

I actually feel so much like blogging today but i don't know what should i name the title.I have not been blogging like for 2 weeks.Cox am really really busy with many many stuff.Assignment,Xmas Carols,Coursework etc etc.Well,I have been quite exhausted these days.But i supposed the tired-ness that i go through is all worth it.Because everything seemed to be going on smoothly.I feel that all is done is real worth it.
Hurmp....10th December 2008...Its a date that CSS members will always remember!Its our very first time performing on stage.Singing Xmas Carol so happily on the stage.We all really enjoyed ourselves there.Many people were they watching,snapping our photos,recording...Out of a sudden,I feel like i'm a SUPERSTAR..hahaha...Joke Joke...
Erm...Tomorow will be the Xmas Party at the orphanage dy.An event that we had planned for quite a long time.Pray that things will go on smoothly tomorow.Hope that we can make a difference in the little kids' life!!!*Winkz*

Just A Little Bout Today...

Erm...We went out for dinner together today<FAMILY>...Happy eh!!!Things at home are starting to change...Changing to be BETTER...!!!YIPPIE!!!Well,i basically spent the whole day in front of my laptop...Checking out ppl's blog...And chatted lot on MSN...Glad that i can go on9...And also can MSN...Cuz i've not been on9 for like...AGES....HahahaxxXX...So probably,that's the reason why i acted so weirdly today......Time passes very fast...I need to go back to KL tomorrow evening dy...But will be back again next weekend...So its fine...I feel that i've not spent enough time with my FAMILY... =( I'm gonna miss MOM!!Can't believe next week is WEEK9 dy...Tamadun Test again!!!HORRIBLE!!!Hope to get more marks then just a PASS...HahahaxxXX...For that i need to wrok hard as well lo...Friends in MSN are all asleep now dy...So no one to chat with le...So blog here lo...I guess i also need to go to bed le...Tomorrow need to wake up early for mass le...And not forgetting...My left hand hurts!!!Its swollen...='(...Nitez...Hope to have a WONDERFUL and SWEET DREAM tonight!! *Winkz*

Am Back!!!

I have not been blogging here for a long long time....Seems like i've abandoned my blog dy...haha...Many many things had happened these few months...Happy...Sad...Frustration...Bla..Bla..Bla..And it goes on...I've made many new friends in CSS...Which means CSS is starting to GROW!!!Praise the LORD!!!YIPPIE!!!
Out of a sudden...I dunno what else to write eh... =(... Fine then...Wait till tomorow,probably i'll have more things to write..hehe....*Nitez* ^^

Why?

I'm now back in Sban already...
My battery is running out....
Things are coming back to me again...
I feel like,there's conflict every where...
And that is really tiring....
Why do i need to face conflict all the time...
We are one as a family but why is there still lines drawn in between???
How are we going to get through if we are not ONE???
I really hope that after this CAMP....
All of us will be ONE as a family...
And all the problems will FADE OFF with the help of GOD!!!
I hope that all i do will not offend anyone...

CSS Annual Camp

We are now planning for CSS Annual Camp for next Semester....
Plans are going smoothly now....
But we are short of RM600+ for it.....
Haix..Haix...
Yesterday was the day i forgot to take my dinner....
Cox i was too tired and i fell asleep.....
HahahahahxxxXXX......
Anyhow...after the meeting....
I felt happy....
Because of all the fun we have during the meeting....
I've learned alot being part of this Family.....
Everyone in the group were friendly....
Especially Pauline they all....
Pray hard that CSS will GROW!!
And the camp will go on smoothly!!!!

Down...DOwn...DOWN...

Today supposed to be a happy day....
But after all the fun....
I tend to be down to sadness again...
I just dunno why i'm always like day these few days....???
I'm Blurr with myself...TOTAL BLURR.....
Every single thing i do,i tend to always think whether its right or wrong...
Did i offended anyone???Did i say anything wrong???
I just dunno if what i'm doing is correct.......
People always tell me that i need to put my priority as the NUMBER ONE!!!
But why do i still failed to do that???
I'm Tired!!Really Tired!!!
Why must my life be so miserable???
I just hope to live a happy life???
Is that so Difficult???
Sadness and Problems are coming again and again into my life....
I could not have a peaceful mind!!!
Is this a test???How can still hold on to it???

My Dearest Doggie...Vicky

DEAREST DOGGIE VICKY!!!!

Happening???

Haix...
Today is the day that i faces 2 courseworks....
Morning was BMP and right after that was PA....
Results were very horrifying and was terribly BAD as well!!!!!
I wonder what happened to me????
Results are dropping like nobody's business.....
And problem is i dun skip lectures!!
And why is my results that bad???
If anyone could answer me????
I'm starting to lose cope in it!!!
I'm hoping to complete my DIPLOMA in MAY 2009....
I hope that is possible.....!!!!
STRESS is a never ending THING!!!
It comes everytime...non-stop.....
Can it just set me free for a period of time....
Its hard for me to handle it!!!
I'm just worried that i can't complete my DIPLOMA next year!!!!
If that really happens,then that would be one of the biggest PROBLEM in my life.....

Free??

Well....

After handed in MIS assignment is considered a relief to me...

But courseworks are coming up next...

Its never a free time in TARC....

There always things lining up next....

Well..Well...

After all the assignments + course works..

However..................

Now i'm at home-->Seremban....

I'm leaving all my stress+tension behind....

I feel that i really need to learn to relax...

I'm gonna leave everything behind...

This is the one time that i can be stress-free at home.....

Every task starts next week....

Yippie!!!!

I'm gonna enjoy my weekend!!!

All in This Week...

This week considered to be a very busy week for me...
Things did not turn out to be how it should be...
English For Biz class was a really chaos....
Everything we did is WRONG!!!
Terrible...!!!
And end up we need to see Mr Johnny and Miss Leong for our assignment..
Well....Well....and Gathering was not as fun as Freshie's Nite...
I wonder if its my fault...cox i did not do my job fast enough...
Everyone doesn't seemed to be involving in the Society....
Including the committee....
Assignments are all rushing up...
All need to be handed in on week9...
Hectic...hectic...real hectic....
Everyone is exhausted because of this....
Probably this is what happens-->last minute work...
Many people presented in class yesterday..
And the laptop went out of battery...
Well...Well...
I did enjoyed the presentation....
It was fun looking at people presenting.... =)
And not forgetting....
Thank GOD that MIS test is on Friday....
If not then i'll feel dead sorry for the class....
Because they will not have enough time to study....
But luckily that our request is approved!!!!

Be Grateful...

27/07/08....
Sek Er and i was having dinner at the Mang Chuan Restaurant.....
The day only left with us both where as Pei had gone back to Sban already...
Dinner was rather quiet because Pei was not around....
Well...I guess that is the spirit and power of friendship...
Both of us ate Chicken Chop Rice....
Dinner was real Yummie until we saw something.....
When we were eating....
We heard someone singing old songs...
I thought it was someone singing karaoke...
But the sound came nearer and everyone was looking at the direction of the song...
Even i was looking around to find where th sound is coming from...
Finally.........we knew what was happening...It really sadden me when i saw it...
It was a handicapped man that was singing on the trolley....
Can you imagine how that happened???I supposed not....
A man without a foot was pushing a handicapped man on the trolley with the speaker on the trolley....
I just don't know how to describe it....
But after i saw,i didn't feel like talking at all....
All out of a sudden...
I feel that,we have to be really GRATEFUL with what we have and who we are...
When i reached home....
Mom called and said that my nephew was admitted to the hospital....DAMN!!!
My heart sank immediately...
Everything is planned by GOD's own hand,when something bad happens,remember that thing happens for a reason....
Try look in another point of view....
Every difficulty,Lies opportunity.....

A WooHoo Day~

Yesterday was my presentation...
I chose a topic that suddenly struck my mind..
"How to live a Happy Life"....
I was searching all over for a topic but finally....
That was my topic for Biz Com presentation...
At first i was really nervous bout it...
And i don't have confidence at all...
Because i was not well prepared..i supposed...
Well....i've made some small bookmarks for the classmates...
And my confidence immediately AROUSE!!!
I guess its cox of the little effort that i've put in....
Here come the next day...26/06/08...
Gosh..a horrible day for me....
PA Quiz + BC Presentation = DEAD MEAT!!!
wakakakakaxxxXXX......
K...Fine...i did very badly for PA!!!SobxxXX.....
Waiting for the time to pass~~its going to be 1.30pm very soon....
OK OK....1.30 had finally arrived....
1st presenter>>2nd>>3rd>>4th(ME)>>5th...
Fortunately...right after i step to the front...
My fear is not there anymore....
I feel like i own the stage..wakakakakxxxxXXX....
I hope that my presentation will touch my classmates' heart....
Anyway..Miss Anura added on to my presentation......
She mentioned alot on real happy life...
And that is really what we need to understand...
We should be grateful with what we have....
Thou should not compare with others....
And rite after that,i suddenly felt that i'm very lucky to be who i am...
Although i might not have a HAPPY family...
But at least my condition might be alot better than the others' outside.....
I feel that all i have now is something that i must treasure.....
No point getting something that does not belong to you...
You will not be happy in the end....
So what's the use???
You may own the whole world...but you're the only one in it....
It's of no point!!!

The Birthday Gurl...

I wonder what is the date now??
21st or still 20th???
Anyway...I know its her Birthday soon...
Well...well....
This girl is going to be 19 real soon...
In fact,she is 19 already as the clock "tick tock" to 12am...
She had gone through quite alots of things this month..
And I supposed,its NOT all happy nor sad...
She decides to let go of her Assistant Class Rep position in DBU9...
Why did she made this decision???
1st >>> the cert...she wants other ppl to own the cert..
2nd>>>bcox she wants others to takes the chance to lead the group...
3rd>>>she's TIRED!!
I guess that are the reasons of her decision...
Although she was not encouraged by her classmates..
But she have to be firm with her decision...
But sadly....Assistant is still not elected....
SO,she still needs to be the Assistant...T__T

The Best Times At Dusun Eco....

Well...Well...Well....
24/03-16/03/08...
Was HISTORY dates that i do crazy stuff.....
Well....although i had to miss mom's birthday...
But that was the time that i had alot of fun.....
Reaching college in da morning at 14/03 with a big luggage was weird...
Getting on an empty bus from Wangsa Maju to TARC....
Was OK...i guess...
At least there wasn't people in the bus that gives me weird looks....
What i had in mind that time....
AIYERR....have to see her.....
And i knew that is something BAD.....
Then saw Mamin...he's also going to Dusun Eco....COOL~~~~
At least i have some other friends going....
Well...till then...
Went up to Sports Complex to lend a hand there...
And MR ALAN thought i'm a helper...
haix...haix...haix....I'M A PARTICIPANT TOO....
Hahahahahaxxx.....
Can't blame him for that...he doesn't know.....
Hahahahaxxx...wakakakakakazzzzZZZ.....
And...it went on with some briefing bout societies....By...MR Tan Sing Sing....
Kinda make some friends that time....1st friend is Jannette...2nd...Ee Wah....
And saw many friends there too...Jordan..Benny...Sze Kian...and so on...
So got to know my group FaCilitator....
Hulala.....Went on the TARC bus....
OOH no...OLD BUS???TO Pahang??
Wonder if we can reach our destination...wakakakakazzZZZ....
Well...that was bad...Bus BROKE DOWN....haix...haix...haix....
At first bus was quiet the noisy...but Danush was real NOISY....hahahahahaxxxXX.....
Reached Dusun Eco....Resort...
Ermmm...not like what i thought...staying in DORM.....hurmmppp...Resort??yeah right....
OK..OK....well....it wasn't as bad as i thought too....
Fan was just right above my bed...COOLING~~YES.....
Once we checked in.....12 obstacle course awaits us.....
Hwala....dirty stuff.....hahahahaxxx...
I would have to admit that are the most challenging stuff i had ever tried...
Last obstacle...Mud...arrgghhh...swimming in mud....??oh boy...not good!!!
But....I DID IT!!!!But...sadly....TYRE....i can't get thru...
The very last step.....I HATE IT!!!!!
Second day....JUNGLE TREKKING????
Oooppss.....i wonder is there lion or somehow tiger???
Hahahahahxxxx....crappy........
It was a real tiring journey that i went thru.....And i meant...DEAD TIRED!!!
Well....as i was walking...i kept on Motivating myself......
This is the journey that everyone will need to walk in life....
Everyone else can do it...why can't you??
Climbing up is hard..i supposed...but getting down is much more harder.....
That make sense????YEAH~~
After bath.....Hanging Bridge...real high.....
Flying Fox...something that i can never forget...
Kayakking....Drown.....hahahahxxxxXX.......
FUn....FUn....thing!!!!!!
After sliding down all those Mud.....its time for pool.....!!!dirty butts are all in the pool...YUCKS~
But fun!!real fun.....unfortunately..Mr Johnny couldn't join us...
WakakakakaxxXXX.....but he was a little wet too....
Peace......After that....session by Mr Johnny...fun lo...his talks are darn funny....LURVE IT!!!
then..then............
Last day at Dusun Eco.......
I'm gonna miss you all.......
Mr Johnny taught us the coconut bollywood dance....aizh....
REAL...REAL....FUNNY!!!!!!!
OK OK...fun time is going to be over real soon...
Photo session.......everyone was cramped up to take pictures....
WakakakakaxxXX.........
In the bus....Mr Johnny sat in front of me....hulala...........
Talk and Joke in the bus....
Chit Chat with Mr Johnny....
Glad that he still remembers me....
LaLaLaLa...........~~~
Yeah.......Huhuhuhuh~~......
I just want to go back to this camp again....
I love it!!!!!
Thankx to all who make this camp a success!!!!
p/s:Thankx to our WONDERFUL LEADER!!!!you sucks!!!

One Month Is Finally Over...

Haix...Haix...Haix...
One month is finally over and i need to be bak to the same old place....
Well....shud be happie or sad.....
Hurmm...Hurmm...
Actually nothin to be sad of though.....
Everything that starts need to end..........
Well...well...
The happiest moment of my holidays was to be a teacher in SMKP...(19/02-22/02/08)
Although at first i thought i could not handle it but finally i can...
Wuahahahaxxx.......
I knew i have to think positively in order to make things happen...
Hurm...Hurm....
But that over in a very short period of time...
And that was real FUN....
Bad thing was that its FREAKING HARD to get my salary from it...
Haix..Haix...
Fine...Fine....
Hurmmpphh.....
Time flew so fast nehx......
Its time to go back to college jor lo...
Wuahahaxxxx.......
Suddenly dunno why so many of my frenz are in love dy lo....
Hush..Hush....
I'm now thinking bout the bu-si-ness i'm going to face in college...
Haix..............................
Wonder it would be stressful....
Blerk~~~~

*I'm going to miss home....

*I'm going to miss mummy......her cooking....her nagging....

*Gonna miss bb bryan....his bitting...his naugty-ness......