Tired!

I just found myself like a dead fish now...TIRED!

Got to know that things that I've been doing these while ain't as good as I thought...I've not been firm enough in leading them...I always failed to do this!

I'm just feeling very tired!Mentally,emotional,physically tired!I wish people could just understand me!I've used all my energy...I've used up all I have to make things good but seems like I've failed...

This have to come to me!I've been happy the few days back...Enjoying my days cox I've achieve something but this time...This strikes me again...

Life is never easy~Dealing with this kind of situation really made me think of the world outside!

I just wish you all could understand me!I always wanna be a superwoman!But,I really can't!!!

Nicer Day Yo~!

一天，过了。。。

Another day had passed us by...~

As I said,I didn't managed to donate blood this time...Again!Haix!But,looking at the bright side...Maybe,I really cannot donate blood cox,I'm too exhausted these days...~Called Mom to tell her my goal in the Amway business...I really hope it can be a DREAM COME TRUE!

He's been here again this week...Erm...Somehow,will think of the matter again...But,maybe...I just need to lessen it? =x

Weeks after weeks...Getting busier and busier...And,one weird person in class is treating me weirdly...HA!Hopefully,its simply because I talk more to him so he is reacting back like that~~ ^^

Assignments and tutorials are lining up long long long~I've been missing home again and again...I wanna go home!Maybe after these days back home~Not sure when I'll be home again~I just got so many things to do in KL~

Sometimes,I find it difficult also if you have too many friends...~LOL~Got me?Cox,its just not easy to meet them all up...Hang out with them...Sometimes,hard for them to understand you...I am trying my very best to prioritise now...I've missed CSS gathering 2 times...Including this round~Not that I don't love CSS anymore...But...Urghhh~Nvm...I felt bad for not joining the gatherings...Aikx!

Anyhow,its 2am+...Gotta be sleeping now already~Hopefully tomoro is a nicer day ahead! Cheers! ^^

Short Bloggy Blog~

Only one day that am away from my blog...Why is it like I felt its been ages?Hurmp...Have been tired these days again...Tutorials are driving me crazy...Lotsa things to be done and...I'm missing home badly...When can I go home?I'm too caught up with too many activities...Here and there...There and here...Its just tiring man!Aikx~~

Chong V lectured me again last night...Maybe,I just need to hold on tight to my dreams and not let it go!This is really gonna keep me going...This is a short blog cox am now in the library...Gotta get back to the college hall now...ZS and Thong are donating blood and...~~I cannot donate blood this round!Ish~~Sad isn't it??BRB ya~~Taz for now!

Why?Can't Sleep?

I'm a little too excited to fall asleep...~

Aikx~~~Why ar??Why ar??I dunno pun~

Hurmp...But,I just need to sleep cox...Tomoro busy lagi~~ XD

Morning Post~

Days passed again~~Due dates are coming nearer and nearer...~Erm...Considered to be progressing?Erm...Hopefully,this time won't be like the previous ones where...~We do it real last minute?

Went gym with Kevin yesday...~Told him what happened...But the chances seemed so so shallow...Just friends?I'm not sure...I keeps wondering...What will be the answer be?Will I be able to take it?

I might be spending lesser time at home next week bcox,I need to bring prospect and downline to open meeting le...Hurmp...Let's see as time goes...If it will be,will be~Pray that I'll get the answer soon!

Clear~

This person have been hanging around my house for almost a week...~

I'm just worried that I'll suddenly get too used to it...~

And if,its not like that anymore...~I'll find it hard to get away~

I'm starting to get confused again!

Frankly,I just hate this feeling~

I don't know if it meant anything~

Why is it always that am always treated so?

I know its not something bad~

But,sometimes...You just want to know...

What is it all about~Why is it so...~

Maybe you won't really know what am talking bout here...

But,I just wanna let it out~

Why is it that,when people are around us~

We act differently?

We have so much to say/talk bout when there's no one around?

Maybe that didn't mean anything~

I just want to know what is it like?

Should I ask?Should I not ask?

I know its not the time now for me to think bout this...

Somehow,I just wanna make things clear~

Life~

Its another day of life...~

Life have been getting busier each day...~

Many things awaits to be completed...~

Assignments...Tutorials...Presentation...~

However,things still needed to be done...~

I hope everyone will be able to get their things done too...~

It have been here these few days...~

Alright...Think of nothing...~~

Carry on with life...~If it happens,it happens...

If not then...~Its bcox,God have better plans for me! ^^

The week have Arrived!

Its been like few days back when I actually blogged the long long blog after some time...~Well,the week that am waiting for had finally arrived...

Camp had finally ended...~It was better than expected...~Juniors were participative...Seniors were okay too...~Well,as usual,you know me...When I climb up the hill or I go jungle trekking...I use to ponder alot...Which I felt all those made sense to me lar...

I was happy because,juniors did also take care of me much~ ^^

Although at first,I had somehow have some not so good feeling...Probably due to lack of sleep...But after that am fine...~I managed to know many people...How many?Well,maybe another 40 more friends?=) Including the activity instructors...4o plus~~

And I found out something bout my committees...They are all so not serious people lo...Only meeting they are so serious...They are just playful and fun people! ^^ I got to know them more during the camp...Got to have fun with them through out..,Its just great!

Many many things again crossed my mind...He have been here these days...Dropping by after class...Erm...Now you know...Made me think lagi~~But,maybe this time not so much already...

Oh ya~I got to know that the instructors are of the same age as me...And some younger...~The one that same age with me was a good person to talk to but...Unfortunately,we didn't have enough time chat bout...Aiyayaya~~

Anyhow,this is the week that I've been waiting for...But,I'm not any free than the weeks before...Now,I've got whole lot of assigments waiting for me...Tutorials...Oh Boyyy~~Its just no easy...I wish to get it all through~~With all my friends~~

I love you!

I wonder why...This semester made me realize many many things about life...These things simply cannot be learned from the notes and textbooks we study...

Many things happened lately...Among friends...Classmates...Surroundings...And...Many more...

I have been superb busy the past few weeks...I hardly have time for my friends,family,society,Amway and even myself...Why was I so busy that time??I don't know...Only thing I knew was...Running up and down college looking for advisor,cracking my head how to get students to the camp,how to get things done...

Had a great outing with my Diploma Buddies last week...We did something that we wanted to do for so long...Was a wholesome tiring day but worthwhile...~Hurmp...We all looked quite good in the picture...~ ^^

Had great lecture from Chong V...He told me...Its time to let something off...~I need to prioritize...!Same as what Mangga Busuk told me...But sometimes,its just too difficult to do so when everything seemed so important...And I felt like completing it all!Which I sometimes can,but I suffered most of the time...Or maybe,even...I didn't get it done nicely??

I found myself very tired these days...I wish I could really have my time back after this weekend...

Especially tired ears!Know what?Conflict happened in class...And the person that had problem with others is the one that told me "Erm...Its the final semester already...I dun wish there will be problem or quarrel lor..." And see what happened at the end?She's the one that created problem to the whole class...And want everyone to get involved in solving her problem...Damn lar!Ish!

Then another one,having problem with her roommate...Cried so much...~

Wonder what is happening now...So many problems happening here and there...And,Emily Fah didn't wanna get herself involved in these matters...Simply because...Am just tired over it...I shouldn't be the one looking for the solutions for them...Right??They are big enough to sort things out themselves...Come on!21 years old dy lar....Have some guts to handle things yourself k??

I actually forgotten bout the matter the past weeks...I didn't have the time to keep myself remembering on it...~~But,it came back this week...We spent much time together...And somehow,it came back again~It is really like what Winnie said?Its not the real feeling?I really wanna let go...But how?When?Where?I really hope...And wish...I dun need to think bout it anymore as when I see the situation...It hurts!

Tomoro...Opps...I should say...~Later is the Leadership Convention Camp dy...~Seeing my committees so participative...Made me happy!Even Raj told me "Your committees very active ar!" LOL~~Tiba-tiba I bangga dy~Wakaka~~Of cox lar...LOL~~

Its a collaborating camp...But,I see my committees working hard towards it!Although we didn't managed to get the number we wanted...But at least we all played our part to search for more! ^^ Right??

Seriously,happenings around me these days made me realize alot bout life,bout cherish,bout love,bout chances and choices,bout appreciating!Not that I dun think bout this last time...But now,more!I lead a blind man this noon~His world is all dark and black but he still survived!He dunno which direction to go!But he still goes on!He dunno which way to get out from the lrt but he still did!

So why are we complaining much?Learn to appreciate before all these are gone!Learn to love!Learn to be selfless!Learn to think bout others!Especially,Family!They are the nearest!No matter what they say,what they complain,what they scold,what they grumble...Its all because they care!

Camp is coming nearer...I need to off to bed now...As,I'll need to take care of the juniors moro too...~~All the best to myself!I wanna say,I love you!To who?Everyone!Cox,I love because,God love!Amen! ^^

BRB~~

Their true colours are all out~Gotta be blogging tonight when back~~

Have been super busy these days~~~

Bcox They Cared!

Its 10 10 10...What ya gonna do with the day?Erm...I'll be going over to my uncle's house tonight...Hoping things that needed to be done will be done!

I'm still trying as hard to get away from things blocks me...Its not easy at times...Especially,when you are just too attached to it...~Well,attached here don't mean computer games ya...~LOL~

I hope people around me could be understanding at times...I felt that my time is getting lesser and lesser...

Words can be hurtful sometimes,the way treated may also be hurtful...Till I think back...Its all because they care for me!He didn't wanna hide anything from me but just bombarded everything towards me!Simply because,he wants me to change...

If I want a extraordinary life,I need to do extraordinary things!There is no free lunch in this world!I need to continue loving what am doing~

Its never easy to get out from the comfort zone but its needed to!

Priorities!

Phone call with Chong V and April made me realise more...Aikx~~

Its always the priority problem~I found its still the priorities problem...I'm trying very hard to do what is needed and what is not................

I will try my very best to deal with it!!!

Sizzle Updates~~

Heart break hotel has gotta end anyhow...Right?I'm still left 40 students for the camp...I shall never give up as...I still have a week to promote it...Although,its like no choice but...I've gotta kick some ass and come out with 40 people...

Gotta be keeping up with much spirit as...~Juniors are looking up on me...^^...So,I just need to play my very part...

What bout life these days?Erm...I'm fine so far...Just that,I've got many many homework coming up...Well,final sem is really no no easy~ XD...Of this 3 years in TARC,1st year having so much homeworks...And we need to present them all...Huhu~No matter what,I'll still need to enjoy college life to the max!

I found out something,life without music made me emo~LOL~

Erm......Martin is back in Malaysia...Went Yum Cha with him that day...With the Hiaw people...LOL~

What else??Bout the matter??I don't think so much bout it these days...Maybe,cox I've been busy with my routines?And,maybe what Winnie said is right...Is it cox am a Gemini??LOL~~Or?I myself don't know what I always wanted?

But,I definitely know what I want this month!I wanna go SP!Trying and searching all ways to reach it man!

Seriously missing home!Misssssiiinnnngggg MY MUMMY!MY DADDY!

HeartBreak~

It was an heart-breaking day today~

Simply because,their response are not as good as thought...~

Are we able to hit the target of 100 students??

What is the problem that they are not joining us in the camp?

Promotional mix problem??

Lack of??

OMG~I suddenly felt so failed.........

Aikxxxx~~~Fineee~~Life still goes ooonnn~~~~ ^^

I'll Still Smile At The Day~

Time passed super fast~

CSS Annual Camp has ended...Project Eagle Graduation ended too...Much things is gonna end soon~~I wonder what bout LIFE?

I have been busy-ing ever since the first week started...This and that...That and this~~Hurmp...Had gone through alot of things these 2 weeks...

Things came in and out of my life~I have so much to write till I dunno where to begin...CSS Annual Camp had ended...And it ended so so soon...I have to be back early due to some things that I cannot avoid~Its a painful decision made...As,I love CSS so much and leaving early that day its like leaving them down...Aikx~~I had teary eyes that day when I was on Dwayne's car~But somehow,I learned so much there that...The bible sharing actually struck me so much on my heart!

"For God,everything is possible"...Somehow,I felt that,God is telling "Its possible my child...I'll give you when time arrives"...Its just a wonderful camp beyond description!Know why?Seeing them all grow...Its so much like a mom looking at the kids grow... ^^

Project Eagle graduation~It was simply awesome also as my Mangga Busuk and Jie went...Dr.Ignatius's words were powerful~~I couldn't concentrate for some reasons till then I sms Chong V...He said "Nvm,pay attention!Everything will be fine!"

Things that am thinking these days were...Is it worthwhile?Should it still go on this way?Is it what I wanted?How to choose?You know when you're too caught up with too many things in life and you'll take everything very seriously?Get what I mean?And that is the time,you find it hard,extremely hard to choose which one to attend to...~~Have you meet this kind of situation before? =)

Getting to know more on True and Fake people~~Huhu~~

Results' out~I failed 2 papers...I still cannot get over Econs~!Why har??Aikx...~~Anyhow,life still goes on~I still need to eat and sleep...So,all I can do is...Work harder this sem~Right??

Looks like my schedule and activities are like....~~Biz Admin Camp~~Arrgghhh~~Planning still not done yet~~Dunno where are we at...~Aikx...~Its no easy to collaborate with other societies~Because they have different ways of doing things and...Its not easy getting them to work together at times...I didn't even meet their committees before...LOL~~

However...I still gotta smile~~ ^^

Its her Smiling Face~~NICE~!

Its just so so so adorable...Right??

The Earth is also Smilling~ ^^... Why not you??

This is Super Adorable!Eh??

A Year Ago~

One year ago~~I was the committee for the camp...This year...~~Am the participant...Happy eh??

Anyhow,I went back to college just now to meet up the juniors bout the camp...I wonder how many will attend out of 700 plus students...Wondered the way i deliver the msg was right?Wonder if they are really attracted??

I kept wondering while I was walking my way back~

Wondering bout the vertical alignment...Between,Family,Friends,Business,Studies,Societies?

Sometimes,when all these clashes...Which would you choose?I'm just not cool at this~~

I'll be heading over to Cameron shortly...Will this be my last time joining this camp?Or not?

The End Of Week 1 Already?

Hurmp...What is significant to be written today?

Week one ended already~Soon right?I felt that too...Had my Diploma Buddy's bday celebrated at TGI Friday's this noon~Hurmp...Had been a long long time since we meet up...And,know what?Once I reached...We chatted all the way till the food arrives-while eating-finished food-got few glasses of drinks refilled~~~The chatting doesn't stop...Haha~~Well,simply because...We had things in common and we have not been chatting like this for like ages?Ha!

Many many things were discussed...~Talked...~Many stories told...LOL~They found out bout my stuff and I found out theirs too...~Like?Hurmpp...Disgusting Stories?Haha~Discussing or Disgusting?~~

So then,we left Wangsa Walk at 6pm~Was supposed to be a nice good bye to them...But this person have tooooooo call me at that time and I attended to that call...~At the end...I got pissed off with that stupid call!

I on speaker phone so that my hsemates would hear the things said...Not for bad reasons...But because,I wanna re-confirm with what I've heard~You know,sometimes...Its just tiring dealing with people like this?Well,being Egoistic...Like what we learned in Moral n Etika?

Haix~~I shouldn't be complaining much...I know...But since,they don't wanna compromise and they dun wanna pull a step back...FINE THEN!I'll do it!Happy now??Me and Pei Cheng discussed over the phone and found that........

Don't need to make a big fuss as they have their choosing power as well...They can choose who they wanna be with.......Making me headache and darn feel like vomiting~~Cox,suddenly,I felt there are just too many things for me to digest and fit them all into my head!You know the feeling?Its just...Sickening!

Well,tomoro will be CSS Annual Camp already~I should be excited over it because...Am the participant this year~~ ^^ Gonna push all these nonsense away~And enjoy my camp to the fullest!Not sure if this is my last time attending CSS Camp...But hopefully not...~~ ^^

My head is effing painful!!