Why Do I Always Screw Things Up?

Its been a long time ever since I posted~ Holidays have been great...Was enjoying it much~Being at home made me felt so blessed~

I came back last night to KL~Looking back at my schedule...I could feel the stress already~There's just too much to be done for me?Is it that am too ambitious in getting many things done at a time?And at the end,I screw up things?

I always fails in prioritizing things~Always dunno which should come first?Which second?And at the end...I'll make people unhappy?Is that really me?This is how life should be?I felt that,I've got to diversify a lot and till,I've neglected many things in life...~

I've made people unhappy,sad,angry.......I know my sorry wouldn't mean much because,I've made the matter arise...

Is it that am too greedy?Wanting this and that at the same time?

I used to tell myself,I'll try my best to not screw up this but...This is what I did most of the time....

There's another thing that is bothering me now...I'm still thinking whether its a should or should not~~~Whether,its a will be or will not be??I needed much courage in doing this...No easy...~Somehow,I'll cherish every moment now...Hoping things would fall in place...Shall I let GOD decide?

Each time when I feel its possible,it became impossible~~I really need to have myself prepared if at the end of the day...What is the results or outcome gonna be?