Awaiting.

Its been a week again that am away from my blog. I do not know how to start bout writing. I have a lot of thinkings these days. Are these thinkings even necessary? I somehow felt Life is not an easy word anymore. There is so much, so much to bear with. I wonder if others have the same thoughts as me or is it just me thinking too much?

Tummy have not been too well these days. Slight diarrhea here and there. I feel weak of a sudden. I feel like vomiting. Is it due to the food consumed? Is it due to the emotions that I have now? Its got nothing to do with the relationship that am in. Things seemed to be fine with the relationship. :) Thank God!

I have been questioning myself, do I deserve to be happy? What's with chasing after something but we all know all are not permanent? What do I have such thoughts? I sounded so unhappy here in this post right? Which I do feel the unhappiness now. And, I do not know why I felt so. Contradicting right?

I'm waiting for the 4 months to pass, its gonna be the end of my contract after 4 months, we'll be meeting up again after 4 months. I'm waiting for the 4th of November to come. Cox I'll be going to the Salvatorian Home. I'm looking for ways to make myself happy with Life.

I hate it when this happens, I do things without a reason. I do not like to do things blindly. When I do things blindly, I do things heartlessly.

Till then, please pray for me. Amen!