Thought!

I'm back in the office today. I'm starting to find difficulties attending, work.

I arrived at 8.10 this morning. Chewed 2 breads. Made a cup of Milo. Kathleen called my ext. Saying, "Emily, can you come over?". "Yokay!" I said. Then, she asked how am I. What happened? Are you feeling better now? She was caring tho. Went and helped her cut the Marble Swiss Role Cakie.

Sat down awhile. Surfing the net. Read Sophia's blog.

I could find someone that have the same common character as me. I have been pondering much these days. I'm angry, but I cannot be angry! I'm sad but I'm finding ways to look happy.

I always question GOD. Why do you want to let such things happen to me, us, my family and CSS?

I'm happy and glad with CSS' growth. GOD is just fair. HE gave CSS another test! Now, the members are just fine. But the committees' turn.

This does not affect others much but to Julius, its a HUGE! Could see his worries. Could see his disappointment. Every year, without fail, there are things that stop CSS from moving forward. But, when we put GOD larger than anything else. HE will guide us thru!

All these while, I have not learned to prioritize. All these while, I have cared so much for others till I've hurt myself. Maybe this is the time, Jesus and All Saints in Heaven says "Emily!LOVE YOURSELF!" LOL!

Seriously, I was kinda pissed off yesday when Mervin told me he needs to rush back. I knew its all cox, of Li Ean. But, then a thought. Its not wrong. Everyone have their ways of living. :)

I was brought to church to attend Daily Mass (how cool?lol!). During prayer, I asked GOD many many many questions. I told him, I'm TIRED! I'm SAD! But, what Fr. Rudy said during sermon really struck my heart! Who am I? What do I have in thought? Do I have a split personality?

People around me said that I think too much. But, what is too much? I do not know. :)

I love to ponder on alot of things. I love to think positively. I hope to live positively. I need to understand that life dun always be the way we want it to be.

By the way, am effing bored at work! HA! My Head of Department, Mr Amir Ghaffar is not in a good mood today. HA! I supposed is cox of the stress at work? Hurmp. Anyway, will be meeting the Loveliess tomoro! PP! Here we COMEEEE!! Yayyy!